As some of you know, I am in the middle of having my home double glazed; not far to go now. Yesterday one of the windows to be done was that of my bedroom and this morning when I woke up I noticed something different. I could hardly hear the birds any more. In fact, I could hardly heard anything outside the house. I live in a fairly bustling little town and I live close to several schools as well as the sea and I’d got used to hearing the cries of gulls in the morning when I wake as well as the sparrows and so on.
I felt decidedly odd.
I will get used to it but it did make me think of the process I went through after the Hamish Fulton/stoat incident. I spent a good deal of time experimenting with my own energy field and especially with a process of self-protection from over-load. Sometimes called psychic self-defense (which is a lot more dramatic than it sounds) this is a process of setting the filters on one’s own energy field to certain levels. No filters and everything comes surging in; every impression, every nuance. Sometimes this corresponds with a condition called low latency inhibition(google it), which does the same for sensory(ie touch, sight, smell etc) input, and basically none of the normal human filters of experience work. Let your filters open wide and you’ll be flat on your back whimpering in a matter of hours, probably. It’s all too much. Go to the opposite extreme and shut it all down and it becomes like quadruple glazing: everything but the most blunt and brutal impressions and sensations is barred from your system.
Understanding that we are beings of energy as much as we are of matter is a vital one in the discovery of where we stand in the universe and finding the right balance and keeping it flexible is essential to staying healthy on every level. Some days I need to keep my filters wider than others; some days I need to shut down, don virtual armour and stride around oblivious of birdsong and the scent of flowers and the heartbeat of mice.