It never rains but…

It never rains but…

You know the saying, and others like “troubles never come singly”. It seems to be true. The last blog post I wrote, I said I was very close to releasing a new book. I still remain very close but the chances of getting the final tasks done any time soon are fairly small.

April was a cruel, hard month. First one family crisis came along, and dealing with that left me so depleted, I came down with shingles. That’s not fun, I can tell you. Then, just as we thought we’d got the situation under control, I got complications with said shingles. More pain, more anxiety, more feeling like death warmed up. Then a further family crisis happened. That’s combined with everything else and I have a full-on flare of the EDS/JHS. The pain is excruciating and I am so, so tired.

Shingles alone is nasty enough. The risk, post shingles, of heart attack and stroke, rises by around 40%. Being post-menopausal, my protection against those catastrophes, afforded by a functioning set of ovaries, is gone. If I push myself, I put myself at greater risk of serious consequences. I’ve had some extra blood tests to rule out various other things but the musculo-skeletal issues are draining me of all energy anyway.

And the other question is this: is the world in a hurry for yet another book, to add to the millions of others out there? Short answer: no. While I know that many are looking forward to a new book from me, I also know that nobody is wanting me to put my health at risk to get it. I know my books make a difference to lives and that makes me content that it’s worth writing and publishing in a world that is largely dominated by capitalist models that I despise and abhor, because what I write fills a valuable niche, however small (in capitalist terms, read that as unsuccessful financially).

So, enjoy the May-time flowers and if you have good vibes or prayers to spare for me and mine, they would be gratefully received.

8 thoughts on “It never rains but…

  1. Oh Viv, I’m sorry to hear that you’re not feeling too well! It sounds as though you’ve been through quite a trial, let alone cope with shingles. I’m not sure whether you’d consider Tarot? Apologies if it’s not your thing! I suggest it because I’ve always found the cards helpful when looking for deeper explanation and gaining insight. Yes, leave your book for now and focus on your recovery, mind, body, spirit and soul. Blessings always, Deborah. Ps. I left Twitter a little while ago but you can always find me scribbling away at my poetry blog if needed. Take care!

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  2. I would Google any prayers to Saint Job for the troubles he had faced. I think he has a saint’s day in the Catholic faith for May 19th.

    I too got shingles and have scars across my belly where it left a mark a few years ago. I got the Shingles Vaccine at a VA Hospital only to find out later that it should not have been given me because I was taking meds for arthritis.

    I hope you can stay with writing. Maybe you can create a character who suffered from condition and over came it through his or her daily writing practices.

    Otherwise, stick to prayers to St. Job. (or was it Saint Jude, the patron saint of impossible cases? Maybe both of them.)

    Good luck and I hope you feel better come June!

    Michael J

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  3. So sorry to hear about the shingles, Viv. Take care of yourself and don’t worry about the book for now. I’m typing this one-handed, btw, as I have broken my arm.

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