“There’s gold in them there hills…oh, no, now wait a minute…!”
A couple of years ago now we worked our way through a dvd box set of the hit series Deadwood. Set in the town of Deadwood (a real place) and following the fortunes of various people (many of whom have the names if not the actual characters of real, historical and sometimes famous people), during the Gold Rush period.
At the time, it rang a lot of bells about the way the self-publishing world was going and since then, I’ve thought about it a lot.
I first began publishing my own books in 2011 (though Strangers and Pilgrims was first published by someone else for me, it was a false start about eighteen months before I finally took it back and began again). It was a time somewhat akin to the early years of the Gold Rush. A new, exciting and potentially extremely lucrative adventure awaited those who were willing to just get their work out there, battling the new tech and avenues the way the prospectors battled weather and mountains and so on.
But gold is buried deep, is hard to find and seams run out unexpectedly and anyone who made plans based on a first lucrative lucky strike were fools if they thought the gold would just keep on coming. I’ve seen it said that the entire amount of gold in the world would fill an Olympic sized swimming pool and no more than that. Gold is finite but hope is eternal. The cannier inhabitants of Deadwood became the suppliers instead of prospectors. They opened saloon bars, shops and brothels; they sold food and drink, shovels and pans, flesh and promises and treasure maps to the folks who flocked there believing they’d make their fortune.
You really can’t blame them. They’d been lured there themselves by the dangling carrot of unlimited wealth if you just dug long enough in the right places, and when they’d got enough to start a business of some sort, the wise ones quit prospecting. As long as people continued to flock or even trickle there, hope in their hearts and enough dollars to buy equipment and whisky, the legends would keep being retold. It only took the occasional lucky strike to keep hope fresh and new legends to be forged.
It’s the same with self publishing and probably publishing generally. We all hear tales of people whose work suddenly went viral and they sold millions; we all probably secretly still believe it could be us, if we just stay out there. But few of us are making any money any more. There’s a whole other debate about whether writing for money is a fool’s game anyway, and another about whether ethically and faith-motivated folks are allowed to ever admit that some of their motivation for writing is in the hopes of making a living or even a decent paying hobby or second job. I’m not going there today.
The people who have a chance of making a living are those who now run businesses selling to the writers. Whether it’s editing services, formatting, cover design or one of a plethora of services deemed needful for authors, aspiring or otherwise, there’s a LOT of canny people out there, offering it. Organisations like Book Bub offer dreams of success through their advertising services (which cost, and dearly and they’re choosy who they will take on for a campaign) bringing your book in front of an audience that matches the demographic your book is aimed at.
For me, I’ve realised that I’m a gold panner. I’m someone who goes out weekends and evenings, with makeshift equipment and warmly-padded waders, and stands bent over a fast-flowing mountain stream, sifting gravel and occasionally finding grains of gold. Once in a while, a nugget comes my way. Sometimes, the dynamite someone has used higher up the mountain has loosened more rocks that bear gold, and I find that the tiny specks come to me more often. But it’s the process of being out there, looking at the fish and the sparkling water and the occasional gleams of precious metal, and knowing that while I could have boxed smarter and found another way to garner my gold, at least I am still doing what I set out to do, and still have a tiny bit of hope in my heart.
If I knew for a fact that no one would ever read a word I wrote, it would be disappointing – but I would still write. If I was denied access to laptop, pen, paper or any other means of communicating, I would still tell stories in my head. The stories are there, and would need to be told, even if only to myself. If someone else reads them, even pays real money to read them, then that’s a bonus.
I love the picture of being out there, in the river, panhandling for gold. I may be sitting in a little room with my laptop, but in my head, I’m looking for bright nuggets of inspiration!
Oh yes, I feel the same, much of the time, though equally as often I’m mumbling under my breath at the sheer frustration of it all.
Oddly enough, the theme of the gold panner is in a short story in a collection I hope to perhaps get out for Christmas, maybe.
Frustration is the natural condition of a writer! (Or so I sometimes feel). I’ll look forward to the short stories.
Wise and true words, Viv. Panning for gold is a lovely and thought-provoking metaphor. I too am a panner for gold – but you’ve reminded me to make sure I take time to enjoy the mountain stream, the glisten of light on water and the sound of birdsong along the way. Thank you!
Always good to enjoy the life around us, isn’t it?
‘Gold is finite but hope is eternal.’ What a brilliant line! The journey sounds inviting – the fish darting about in the sparkling water … not to mention the ‘occasional gleams of precious metal’. May many more come your way.